My body had been bugging me. I was aware that I was becoming overly sensitive to coffee, and that I needed to stop drinking it. Yet I resisted. I loved my morning cups of java. I loved the occasional treat of a latte. But still, my body bugged me. And one day, I had too much coffee, and it literally made me throw up.
Okay, okay! FINE. I’ll stop drinking coffee and go to black tea. But my body wasn’t done bugging me.
If you follow our blog at The Brighthill Lantern, then you know that there is a lot of change afoot in this world, and we are being called to a higher spiritual purpose and a higher energetic vibration. Meaning, we have to let go of things that drag our energy and our minds and emotions downward. So my body was bugging me to let go of specific things in my diet that I may not have noticed in the past, but that were definitely a drag on my energy. Like coffee, which I had begun to observe made me feel nervous and made my energy weirdly kinetic in a bad way.
So, I quit coffee. But I wasn’t done yet. After having my evening cocktail, I began to notice that drinking it had the effect of rubbing Vaseline on my third eye. In short, it literally clouded my spiritual vision. Hmmm. I really liked my evening cocktail. What if I just had a small shot of Scotch? But big cocktail or small, the effect was the same. Good grief, I had no plans to stop drinking alcohol! But I eventually gave in, took up having an herbal tea instead (cocktail hour is when I talk with Ahnna and Jonathan after the day’s work), and asked the angels to help me overcome any cravings for that lovely bottle of Scotch on the sideboard. So far, it’s been a good thing, and I haven’t missed it much.
But I still wasn’t done yet. I began to pay attention to what my body actually wanted, and I began to cull other foods naturally, and without effort. For example: cheese. I love cheese. A lot. But I had this “feeling” that it would be better to eat less, or even no cheese at all. I had been eating it daily, so I cut back. I still occasionally have some mozzarella on homemade pizza, but by and large I’ve started to avoid it.
As I began to modify what I ate, I noticed that my diet had a tremendous impact on my mood. I don’t think most people notice the correlation between what they eat and their emotional state, but the angels were telling me that it had a profound effect, and I found this to be true. The worst of my perimenopausal mood swings were alleviated, and I was more relaxed and in a better temper overall after making a few small changes to my diet. Everyone in the family noticed—and appreciated—this fact. Particularly me. I felt less stressed out, which was fantastic.
Still, there were other foods I had some suspicions about. Dairy, for one. But I was already eating a low-carb diet, which I wrote about previously, so I didn’t want to lose too many sources of good fat unnecessarily. I decided to visit a naturopath and get tested for food sensitivities. I had long wondered if wheat was a problem for me, so I decided to find out for sure.
Before I could get the blood test done, I had to eat foods that I suspected might be problematic, including wheat, at least twice a day. Ugh. After clearing some things out of my diet, I now had to put them back into my diet for two weeks. This also meant eating more carbs than I preferred. As Dr. Jill said to me, “Enjoy!” So I baked a carrot cake and did just that. I ate wheat, rye bread, oatmeal and oat bars, yogurt, a variety of fruits and vegetables, cheese, sugar, honey, and anything else on the list that I felt was suspect.
Everyone noticed the change. I became stressed, cranky, and, for several days, depressed. I couldn’t wait to get the test over with. Then I had to wait three weeks for the results.
After the test, I resumed my old diet again, hoping that my emotional state would clear rapidly. In some ways, it did. And in some ways, it seemed to get worse. What the heck?
The food detox was working, actually. It was working so well that I had a healing crisis. All of the emotions that had been covered up by the food were now able to come to the surface and be released. It’s no fun in the moment, but it’s a good thing in the long run.
By the time I got my results, I was working through a depressed period, and I couldn’t wait to find out what other foods might be problematic for me. The results were fascinating.
Wheat, rye, oats, and barley were not problematic, surprisingly. Neither was sugar or honey (though moderation is always the key with any of these carbs). Problem foods were dairy (except butter and goat’s milk), eggs (ouch!), yeast (I thought so!), cashews, almonds (so much for half of my paleo recipes), bananas, pineapple, cranberries, and watermelon. Yes, watermelon. In fact, my sensitivity to watermelon was the highest of all, and Dr. Jill said she’d never seen anyone with a reaction that high.
As she pointed out, being sensitive doesn’t mean never eating these foods again, but possibly only doing so on an occasional basis—definitely not daily. She recommended I not eat any of them for 6-8 weeks, and then try introducing them one at a time to see what happens. So, sure. I’ll do that…
And now I find myself in the weird position of checking vegan cookbooks out of the library to figure out how to bake treats without milk or eggs in them, while still avoiding processed foods (a lot of vegan products are highly processed). Meat isn’t a problem, and I’m still a carnivore. I’m also still trying to keep a relatively low-carb diet, though now that I’ve cut out the evening cocktail, having two servings a day occasionally doesn’t seem to be a problem for my weight.
I’ll be keeping a food journal to try and find patterns with certain foods. I’m really curious to know which ones are my “big” mood killers, and which ones were making my face break out (though some of that might also be healing response at this point). But I’m primarily interested in the extent to which certain foods negatively affect my mood and sense of well-being. To me, that is profound. After years of asking the angels for help, detoxing from certain foods was the answer. I have to wonder how many people have been prescribed drugs for their emotional well-being who could be helped by simply eliminating problem foods from their diet. I also wonder if certain foods tend to be more problematic than others. That would require a study, of course, and right now I’m my only subject, so I can’t say. All I can say is that this has been true for me. And maybe it will help others.
One of the resources I was guided to during this process was Angel Detox: Taking Your Life to a Higher Level Through Releasing Emotional, Physical, and Energetic Toxins, by Doreen Virtue and Robert Reeves, a naturopath. While reading this book, I allowed myself to be guided to the things that “felt right” for me, including some herbs. If you pick up this book or any other, always check in with yourself and intuit what is “right” for your body. Everyone is different, and your body absolutely knows what is best for you if you pay attention and follow its guidance in this way.
I can’t wait to find out what happens this summer as I travel this road. If you decide to travel this path as well, ask the angels and your guides for help. They can’t do anything unless you ask, but once you do—fasten your seat belt!
~ Asha Hawkesworth